2nd post of the day, well found this awesome song. For those who are currently not over any particular gal or guy. Do listen to this song. You will get your sense of motivation. Rem your loved by people around you, esp me too!

"Over You" by Chris Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Had a long day yesterday till the next day 7am. Gosh i'm so beat.
Yesterday is the POC of OTC2007, which mark the end of otc. So happy for everybody who passed out, especially Tango and Campfire committee members. haha CONGRATS!

Was so proud of most of most of them there, after all all of them put in their time and effort to commit to this long and grueling course. Thinking back, i can't believe that i too put in so much effort. However i had fun and learn lots of new things from everyone. It was just like a big big family. Whereby everybody are best friend with each other. The whole POC pass like breeze, filled with singing, ushering guest, phototaking, and phototaking. Haha all the instructors are like on drug and being to sing and dance to songs, supporting each other! Have to wait for the pics.

Was kind of disillusioned from OTC, by its grading system. Dun really like the whole system, however there wasn't much i can do, other than getting into argument with the chairman of the course. Haha, didn't know how that happen either. Luckily, everything is solved in a harmony manner, well learn an important lesson in human management that day. Well a classic example, who passed out last year, who i think was kind of useless is *&%$#. The clue is its a he, and a "FAT" one. Still duno who? Ask me personally then.

Well back to POC, this year was pretty memorable too, especially with all instructor and trainees. The food taste awful, well but that can't b help. My tango, sang a song, haha predicted that it will be the case, its was good too! (ok that was a bias source, but who cares, whatever!)
Had a alpha finale, whoa that was really good, marks the end of the whole course.

Another committee, which is the CFC. Was touch that they remember us, even though i did not treat them quite well. Since she is the angel, i can only be the devil to balance out. Still very proud of them, for pulling off the whole thing and making the effort and all. I believe they have all learn a precious lesson since that day. I believe it will be a stepping stone for them to be a better officer. Oh they even go me a mini trophy to thank me. THANK YOU! It will forever be proudly standing beside my other trophies.

Well POC part 2, was continued at west coast Macdonald. Haha, we were busy chatting away. Or should you say gossiping away. It was fun!. Jaq and Huishi Mdm are really good chatting mates. Realli had fun talking and chatting with them, which is kind of sad, coz the course is going to end. Anyway the outing at Macdonlad is definitely, enriching, arrggh felt so sinful. But as Ben sir said: "DUN CARE". Haha After about one hour plus, proceed on to part 3.

Me and Meizhu who lived the furthest then proceed to Qingjun Hostel to stay. Haha sound wrong right, but hey its an innocent gathering. Didn't sleep the whole night. Was watching lots of videos and had fun talking and chatting after watching videos. Thats how i spend my whole day and night. So looking forward to next week chalet. Whoa!

Well just made a humongous mistake at work
Customer just paid for ticket and found out that i reserve the wrong ticket, undercharge the dann ticket. My first thought was, there goes my pay, and my second though was, my pay wasn't even enough to cover, two months pay more likely. Luckily, they decided to cancel the reservation. Whoo, that was so close. Of course the customer was angry, the wife was super pissed, but luckily when i deliver the bad news, the wife wasn't there. The husband was quite cool about it. Felt so stupid and blame myself for making such a stupid mistake. Next time i must NEVER make such mistake EVER AGAIN.

Lesson learns : Always double-check when quote customer price.

Oh just remember that i film the POC video, well it was extremely awkward, but funny. Hope tango like it. Haha its quite significant. Everybody was like laughing at everyone, it was fun watching others NG and stammer. I think i had like 7 NGs.

Tomorrow is yet another day that i have to go to work. Its a brand new start for me, to learn new things and not commit the same mistakes again! So SMILE! (but why is it so hard for me to look forward to tml? Wish i am some rich kid!)

Went KTV today with some frenz, well it was pretty fun and at least i sing decently even when i'm down with flu. It was quite a gathering, people coming together to sing and chat. One word, ENJOYABLE.

Despite being in the company of so many people, felt very emo today. Partially was due to my flu, felt so lethargic today, had to force some enthusiasm when singing. Was reminded of my sis when i sing this particular song, as we had once sing this song together at ktv before. How i miss her. On the way back, tons and tons of memories keep flowing back.

Sometimes i really wish i can blame someone for her death
Maybe him, just blame him, just maybe it will make it less painful
But i know she love him tremendously, in fact even more than everything else in the world
Sometime i wish i am not so damn practical
It was me who convince my family to forgive him
Forgive him bcoz my sis would not wish to see us hate each other
Sometime i dun even know whether i did the right thing
What if one day he fell in love with another gal?
Sometimes i wonder how i will react
I believe i will hate him if he do like another gal

Everyday i will reprimand myself for not showing enough concern for her
Hate myself for not being there for her
Hate myself for not knowing her better
Sometime i will even hate her for throwing her life away
For making the whole family miserable
Sometime i will simply smile thinking back the wonderful time we had together

Keep remembering my last look of her
Lifeless and cold body
All the bruise around her body
Without makeup
I could not do anything but stand there crying and crying
Nobody could stop crying
Nobody could

The next day, me and my 2nd sis read to her letters left by her students
I am damn proud of her, all her student loves her so
That they even came to give her their last respect
It was the most exhausting 3 days of my life
I am so afraid to lose anybody in my family
Just hope that i don't have to go through any of it anymore

Felt better after pouring out my pent up feelings
I am so going to treasure everybody around me
Am so going to treasure each and every single day, even if it is attachment
Sometime i wish for a large teddy bear, for me to hug and cry on
Well just want to tell people that i know I LOVE YA.

10 things i WANT

1. Brown leather belt
2. Brown leather handbag, big enough to put A4 material
   
3. Charles & Keith sandals
   
4. New court shoe
5. New sneaker
6. More working attire (Skirt/ Jeans/ Nice top)
   
7. Gigantic teddy bear to hug and sleep with
   
8. red/purple/ brown nail polish (not the shiny kind)
9. Notebook
10. Driving license
    

Finally its sat, end by first week of SIP. Well not exactly first week, since i started work only on wed. Nevertheless, one week down 20 more weeks to go. OMG thats a lot! Well better make the most of it, quite interesting though, learn abacus, so many freaking password to memorise, hope i don't under code.

Well just quarrel with my 2nd sis about a stupid issue, although we seems alright now, there is still this issue hanging over our head. Dann irritating.

Well just had this interesting conversation with my younger sis. She was asking me 5 fetish i have for guys. Haha thought for a while and here it is:

1) Cant resist guys in uniform (not inclusive of business suit or chef outfit)
2) Love guys who wear specs, just find them irresistible
3) Tall guys who tower over me, hate talking to guys looking down (no offense to short guy)
4) Smart guy, love guys who are good academically
5) Like guys who have long fingers, the pianist kind, long and slender (sounds wrong right)

Haha, it took me quite some time to think of this 5 fetishes i have for guys. Haha oh, i like guys who have nice teeth too. Its like the first thing i see when i see them. No idea why. Well this is just for fun. Well i seems to know a certain friend of mine who loves macho, manly and meaty kind of guy. muahaahaha guess who she is? Her name start with letter L.

Well went to see my poly mates who are going for OSIP off. OMG 5months without them, gonna miss them like hell. There was lots of huggings and phototaking and hugging again. 1H03 is still the best, after all most of 03 people are present to send the 03 off. Below is the pic taken, all except Angie. Well have to wait for Junie to send me the pic.















Me & Liyan; well she's not flying















Chai














Ade














Mok, Siejen & Liyan















MeiYan















Whole gang

Team 2 Outing

Had a late lunch at Botak Jones. It was really worth it, the food are simply delicious! Wanted to watch a movie after lunch, but too bad the movies are all fully booked. Went to mac cafe to had a drink and came up with this awesome proposal for Sentosa outing. Cool!

Oh Angeline brought us to a pub, which has KTV facilities. OMG love it! Had fun! Pics are not with me so have to wait.

In the meantime heres my Sentosa pics!

Pam & me





















Pam, Naomi & me
















































Me & Jean